Today is my little sister's birthday. So I feel very down in not being able to pick up the phone to her. The autumn colours remind me of my sister's hair.
Just not being able to send a funny card or text is pretty much awful. Or even say I was thinking of her on her birthday. We used to send each other silly presents, just for fun. My sister was the only person in my family who gave a crap about me or my birthday.
Sometimes I still think of what she sounded like when she'd laugh or tell a funny story. And knowing I will never hear that again is very tough.